confusion and frustation

i've heard things before. things i never wanted to hear. some of my greatest fears have been coming true. i've left some of the greatest friends just to be with someone who has hardly ever been there in my life. which is a big step for me. i want a better life but will this make that difference i've been sad and i've been happy. but happyness is never shown. my best friend and i are drifting apart so fast. i've left my mom for my dad. i've thought about doing things to myself i've regret doing in the past. i feel like nobody understands me but i know people do. these are problems that i face that other people have and are facing in their life. most people don't realize it but one little smile at a person one little thing by asking how a person is could make a persons day a whole lot better. i look at everything that's happened in the past week and i've just been depressed and sad. the only thing that's made me happy is music and lacross. i found my strong points that i need to use. that all a person in pain needs, a strong point that takes every thought away. that just takes you to your own world where noone can bother you. when you find that place stay there for as long as you can. friends can help you along the way but your the one that has to get through it. take one step at a time and don't rush. if you rush that one thing hurting will come back to haunt you. if i helped you comment this blog.