this is life

there is always someone out there who will hurt you over and over again. the sad thing is it's that one person who you will never think of to do that sort of thing. you think their gone but they really hide there untill that moment comes. your worse fear happens. one day you seem to be looking at old memories it could be a photo a song or even just a yearbook. something simple like that. then it comes that moment that's been waiting there for so long, it just explodes you don't know what hits you. you run to your room close the door and lie in bed pissed off, crying, depressed, trying to call or text people, wanting to be alone, yelling at someone for just saying "i'm sorry for what happened yesterday" or even just for no reason at all. you try everything you can but nothing seems to work. then that thought comes to your head, your thinkin of what to do. your mind is havin a debate, it's only once it couldn't hurt. 2 weeks later something new happens. your lying there again it angry with yourself thinking about how you cannot live no more, how your life is worth less. you keep wondering what makes you go on. once again you do that one thing you will regret 3 days later. i've become addicted to things like these, plenty of people can tell you that. as hard as it is in life there is so much worse things that could happen. i'm finally realizing what i have to over come and what i should not be afraid of. instead of worring about what may happening in the future worry about what is happening in your life right now. you may be worthless to yourself but to others you could be a happy ending. this is a person who i want to become.